I'm sweaty and dirty but at least I'm getting stuff done today. Cranked my music up and am finally moving my butt getting this pig sty back in order. I'm finally over the whole feeling cruddy and exhausted all day thing and man oh man is it nice. Not to mention not smoking is making me breathe SO much better, & now the morning sickness is gone so WOOT WOOT!
The munchkins are taking the opportunity of me being in a different room cleaning to terrorize the rest of the house though, you win some and lose some I guess. Now if I can just keep them out of the areas I've already cleaned.... that would be awesome.
Life is overwhelming right now, I think a good portion of it is the hormones but it seems like nothing is going right, and I'm starting to doubt everything, I'm really starting to debate my marriage (again could be the hormones) but I'm starting to believe I could be doing better completely on my own. If I'm going to feel like a single parent and be doing all the housework/cares of a single parent then I want to be a single parent.
All the financial issues we are in depresses me, I want to cry a good portion of the day but I don't. I feel like he is too comfortable at a desk job that sucks, and has no plans to move forward into better pay or a career that uses the degree he spent how much money earning. His current job doesn't seem to be covering the bills anymore now that the economy changed, they didn't give anyone pay raises for 2009, and they have been dinks about figuring out incentives going all the way back to December of 2008. I don't get why he stays there.
My hormones are going nuts, and everything seems overbearing.
Could I work? Maybe. I'm already stressed with two toddlers at home, being pregnant, full time school and half-assed selling Avon on the side. I get nearly 5,000 extra in financial aid/loans twice a year, so I consider that as my contribution to the household right now (10,000 and the bits I make off from Avon), I think that's pretty good considering it could be zero for a stay at home mom. If I worked too, my kids would be short changed on attention/care and my schoolwork would suffer (it's hard enough with two kids running around).
Blah, maybe I'm making excuses.
I'm tired of the emotional drainage of being pregnant. *Sighs*
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3 comments:
Hang in there girl friend, and don't sweat the small stuff. You are doing good. Your house can be neat when the nest is empty many years from now. Just do the best you can, cause time gets by on you really fast.
Hope you're doing all right. Since you have not posted for a bit, and I haven't seen you hanging around the Fat Daddy neighborhood I thought I'd check in on you.
Have a happy 4th1
Awww, thanks!
I'm doing good, Emotional from being preggo, spent some of this week on the road to Grandmas house that sort of thing... posting to come! Hope you're holiday is excellent!
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